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oil marks appear on walls
where pleasure moments hung before
Created on 2005-03-11 23:07:13 (#6420892), last updated 2009-11-12
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Basic Info| Name: | Eruka |
|---|---|
| Birthdate: | 1988-09-23 |
| Location: | Chicago, Illinois, United States |
| Website: | MySpace |
BioWhat am I listening to right now?
I've come to realize in the past few months that I honestly don't know myself at all.
It's scary, not knowing yourself.
So I'm trying to figure out who I am. I don't care WHAT I am anymore. I am Amanda, and I like watching television and dreaming of having my own television show. I pay attention to camera angles and light and I try to figure out why they put certain things into a shot. My brain is constantly creating. Creating scenes, shots, storyboards... I am going to be a great television writer.
I make plans. I have to make plans to put all of the bad behind me. That's how I deal. My life has not been easy, and I need my friends to understand that. I'm learning how to look forward, not to prove myself to anyone, but to at least let myself know that I can have a good life. I don't have to be my parents.
I doubt that I'll ever fall in love and get married. It's just a fact. People in love annoy me, and they kind of always have, and fictional love is much more fun to write. And ruin. Real life is not for me. It never has been.
So that's me. I'm not all here. I've been hurt by people that I trusted so many times, that my faith in humanity is lingering.
Otherwise, I can be pretty fucking awesome.
I've come to realize in the past few months that I honestly don't know myself at all.
It's scary, not knowing yourself.
So I'm trying to figure out who I am. I don't care WHAT I am anymore. I am Amanda, and I like watching television and dreaming of having my own television show. I pay attention to camera angles and light and I try to figure out why they put certain things into a shot. My brain is constantly creating. Creating scenes, shots, storyboards... I am going to be a great television writer.
I make plans. I have to make plans to put all of the bad behind me. That's how I deal. My life has not been easy, and I need my friends to understand that. I'm learning how to look forward, not to prove myself to anyone, but to at least let myself know that I can have a good life. I don't have to be my parents.
I doubt that I'll ever fall in love and get married. It's just a fact. People in love annoy me, and they kind of always have, and fictional love is much more fun to write. And ruin. Real life is not for me. It never has been.
So that's me. I'm not all here. I've been hurt by people that I trusted so many times, that my faith in humanity is lingering.
Otherwise, I can be pretty fucking awesome.
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